Today’s post isn’t going to be about Halloween. It’s going to be about an open letter. There are lots of tips and tricks to maintaining your weight and staying healthy over this holiday, (check Pinterest!). Just last night I decided I wanted to do something more wide scale and try to help you all by helping myself. As a dietitian, I think people expect me to be perfect in how I eat, workout and how much I weigh. It’s a tough standard to live up to sometimes, especially when all you want to be seen as is a real woman too, with the same struggles and set backs but also with a desire to improve.
Enter, The Christie Project.
For the next 8 weeks, I am going to taking another good hard look at my health, where I’m at and where I want to go (I do this from time to time). This time, I want to document it for you, using some of the tools and secrets I teach in my 7 Day LiveLoveLose weight loss and emotional eating challenge (CLICK HERE to sign up for this freebie).
To start, before I get into anything food, emotions, exercise or any of that other stuff, I want to get vulnerable for a minute and let you, and my healthier future self, what I am hoping to gain.
Dear Future Healthier Me,
It’s been a while since I’ve seen you. At least, the version that I was before I decided to start a family. Let me first start by getting something out of the way:
It goes without saying that my little guy is the light of my life and every struggle, tear, medication, needle, ache and pain was worth it. I love him deeply and forever and do not regret what I went through to create our family.
Those feelings, however, don’t hide the fact that I have been left with some broken pieces that I’ve had a little trouble putting back together. After losing 90lb by adopting a healthier lifestyle, I was in a place where I felt comfortable in my skin and my life. But then the doctor told me that steroids had to happen in order to have a healthy pregnancy.
Talk about a kick in the teeth.
But I did it, because I knew it would be best for my baby. Even though it would likely cause me a setback, I would. And it did. Maybe 15lb. And then another 15lb for a healthy pregnancy. And then the unexpected 15lb that came after when my body betrayed me and sent me into an extremely profound post partum depression. I needed comfort and I used food.
I have adjusted to motherhood and am back on the road to finding you again, Healthier Me. I’ve been able to lose about 12lb, but I had forgotten how hard it was to find you in the first place. My time is not my own anymore. I follow the same regimen I did to lose that 90lb. I’ve had to adjust so that I can find you. And that’s been hard.
I have started to realize that you, my Healthier Me, isn’t going to look like it did before. I grieved a little when I realized that, but I also have been able to accept it. I KNOW that doesn’t mean I can’t and won’t get back to my pre pregnancy weight. What it does mean, is that the Healthier Future Me is going to look different, and I’m going to have to start looking at it in a different way.
My Past Healthier Me was a lot about looks. I wanted to look thinner, wear smaller clothes and feel confident enough to enter the dating pool. While all those things are still nice (although I found my guy who loves me at all sizes), I realize that to find you again, I need to focus on a lot of other things as well. My motivation no longer lies in a desire to just look thinner. I want to FEEL better. I want my joint pain to ease and I want to exercise without difficulty. I want to keep up with my kid. I want to avoid a heart attack. Healthier Me, I realize now that you need something from me that I never gave before.
You need me to find balance in my life
You need me to find love for myself that isn’t based on a number
You need me to release myself from the jail of strict dieting and stringent calorie counting
You need me to learn to let go of perfection
You need me to lose weight to improve my body’s HEALTH, not it’s looks.
And you need so much more it seems. I feel overwhelmed looking at your list of needs, but at the same time, the things on this list make me feel comforted. If I could have those things and more, I would feel amazing. I want that for myself. I want you. I know it’s going to take work but I also believe I can find you. Or at least a version of you. I’m okay with that. One of the greatest gifts this struggle has given me is being able to realize and accept that aside from death, there is no final end point to improvement.
We are going to always be on the search for you, Healthier Me, but just different versions at different seasons of our lives.
So I look forward to seeing you at the end of the next 8 weeks, where I will be committing to new habits that will help solve my issues with food and propel me down the path to health.
Thank you for your patience and thank you for waiting for me.
I’ll be there soon.
Why Write an Open Letter to Yourself?
A great way to start down a new path to health is do what I did above: write yourself an open letter?
Why? you ask.
A lot of people launch into a weight loss program full throttle without much thought. And they lose weight! As you may know from your own experiences though, it’s so easy to gain it back with out a plan and a vision for where you want to go. The easiest way to do this is to pull out a journal, a piece of paper or something else, and to write a letter to a healthier version of yourself.
- Don’t hold back – even though this is an open letter, it will only be for your eyes
- Tell the healthier version of you why you haven’t achieved it yet and what you want to do about it (and WHY)
- Talk to the Healthier You about things other than weight. How do you want to feel? How do you want your relationship with food to look?
- Use it to address the feelings and frustrations you have about your current situation, and for identifying areas that you will start setting goals for
This open letter is just get yourself thinking deeply about what you want for your life and your health.
Go give it a try, like I did above! And for now, see below for the things I am going to start working on this week.
Next week I will be back for an in depth look at how I manage my diet to encourage weight loss!
WHAT DO YOU DO NOW?
- Write an open letter to a Healthier You
- CLICK HERE if you’d like to join a 7 Day Challenge that gives you the skills I will be working on through the next few months! C’mon JOIN ME
- Join the LiveLoveLose Cafe, my free private Facebook Group to accountability, support and access to me, a Dietitian!
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